Everyone at some time or another has the opportunity, even responsibility, for the formation of someone in their life. It is not just ordained religious or consecrated religious who can benefit from the ideas in the following. Parents, teachers, good friends all have opportunities to be guides for others.
The following pseudo-dialogue between St. Therese and Hans Urs von Balthasar was constructed from material in Two Sisters in the Spirit, a study of St. Therese of Lisieux and St. Elizabeth of the Trinity, written by von Balthasar.
Therese:
The following pseudo-dialogue between St. Therese and Hans Urs von Balthasar was constructed from material in Two Sisters in the Spirit, a study of St. Therese of Lisieux and St. Elizabeth of the Trinity, written by von Balthasar.
Therese:
You did not hesitate, dear Mother, to tell me one day that
God was enlightening my soul and giving me the experience of years. … I am too
little still to coin well-turned phrases in order to give the impression of
great humility. I prefer to admit quite simply that the Almighty has done great
things in the soul of his divine Mother’s child; and the greatest of all is to
have shown me my littleness, my impotence.
Balthasar:
Before she could write such words, Therese had to become
detached from her own person in an entirely new way, through the praise and even
more the graces that her office brought with it. Her period as novice mistress
teaches her … the complete discrepancy between [her] office and [her]
achievement. Indeed, this discrepancy represents the essence of very
ecclesiastical office … simply to be an instrument of the divine will and a
channel for divine authority.
Therese:
When I was given the office of entering the sanctuary of
souls, I realized at a glance that the task was beyond my strength.
Balthasar:
Obviously, an instrument can do nothing of itself, and the
person who wishes to serve as a divine instrument must rest completely resigned
to whatever use the divine hands make of it. And, when someone resigns himself
into God’s hand, his own gifts and experience are shown up for the puny things
they are. At one time they can be of use, and at another time they remain
unused or may even be disturbing.
Therese:
From a distance, it seems easy and pleasant to do good to
souls, to make them love God more by molding them according to one’s own aims
and ideas. Up close, it is quite the contrary … one feels it is … impossible to
do good without God’s help …. One feels it is absolutely necessary to forget
one’s likings, one’s personal conceptions, and to guide souls along the road
that Jesus has traced out for them without trying to make them walk in one’s
own way.
Balthasar:
This sentence contains Therese’s own judgement on herself
and her existential method; clearly her tenure in office had taught her the
limits of this method … it was only her ebbing strength that prevented her from
explicitly revising it to bring it into line with her interior progress.
Therese of the Child Jesus did at least learn to modify her
method. Everything purely personal is expunged … there remains the one
immovable landmark, the office manifesting the will of God. It is as though she
stands aside from herself and she can turn the light on herself or away from
herself … not as she feels but as her office demands. Everything personal only
counts as material that can be used or just as well left aside.
Therese:
From the first, I saw that all souls have more or less the
same battles to fight, but they differ so much from each other in other aspects ….
It is impossible to act with all in the same manner. With some souls, I feel I must
make myself little …. If I am to do any good with certain others … I have seen
that I have to be firm ….
Oh how it [that is, the grain of sand with which she identifies
herself] desires to be reduced to nothing … nothing but to be forgotten …, not
contempt, not insults, that would be too much glory …. To be despised it would
have to be seen, but it wants to be forgotten. Yes, I want to be forgotten, not
only by creatures but also by myself.
Balthasar:
When she thus turns herself into an instrument, she excludes
the possibility of judging the work she is doing …; in the first place the achievement
is due to the artist, not to the brush; secondly, there is here no relationship
between the quality of the instrument and the work it accomplishes.
Therese:
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